Practicum

Today is the last day of my practicum.

I would say it is a real relieve, finally it end. But much more I feel right now is a blended emotion, I'm not ready yet to leave this school. The teachers which were my true friend, the students that might not be able to see me again and the motivation I could not finished for them is haunting me.

After enormous notable fight for about 6 weeks, this is the closing stage, the last part of my teaching practice.

After getting ready for about five years theoretically, this is the sincere, most authentic feeling I would sense emotionally about 'school', 'student' and 'teaching'.

Isn't something missing before this?

Here, after this unsurpassed remarkable 6 weeks dealing with gizmo students like Wazir, finally I'd been given the chance to touch the texture of the school atmosphere.

School is isn't about getting ready with Lesson Plan and 'Alat Bantu Mengajar' only, furthermore it reflect the character of the social background of our nation.

Teachers would teach, students can learn, but to build the character, the passion to teach, the enthusiast to learn, is much more important.

For a trainees like me, nothing more important than our majestic 'buku RPH' and the portfolio. I don't give a damn about it, I am no longer craze about marks. Instead of completing that task, it is real out there that trainees should be pro-active, having a strong relationship with school and the most important mission is trying to appreciate the students, absorb their emotion and strongly work out with them to create their potential.

I've been given several task there, which I should thanked the administrator because believing in me to do the job. The task is carried out successfully with the help of the other trainees. By the way, my objective for this practicum besides having faith in this sacred students is to feel and prepared myself for fit the situation, atmosphere at the real time profession as a teachers. This task finally help me alleviate to assist myself in order to understand the school system and how they operate themselves.

I would be left my heart today, in order to thanked the chance and belief everyone gave me there. It must have been a great 5 years of theoretical classes, but not a single minutes I spent at this school to compare of.

What do I learn most is, have faith in these students, and they will have faith in you.

This is what teachers are for.

(For a trainees which sometimes work as a part-timer complaint staff-usually post-grad one, stop narrate gigantic fairy tales about your profession before you ended out being teacher trainees. We no longer talking about the past, you choose this as your destiny, act like what you should, follow the pattern and stop complaining like you are the alien from the Pluto which never know about the system of school and 'maktab' tradition. I'm bored to death listening tall tales about your 'past' job, we no longer interested to know much more out of the education field. This is why, I believe people, lecturers and teachers are condemning the type of group like you!)